In about two hours I find out if I have cancer.

Well now, thats a fun thing to think about, isn't it? Sitting here, wondering whats going to happen...never thought I'd be here, at least, not at this age.

But, life moves on. Grass grows. Rain falls. The planets continue in their rotations, not caring what one person out of billions is worrying about. In one of my writings, trying to open a story, I had said "In the eyes of the Heavens, we all go unnoticed." Or at least, it was something like that. I don't feel like digging it up because, my file system is a mess, and searching would be a pain. I don't feel like the effort.

When I say life goes on, I don't just mean life around me...I move on. I'll learn to deal with whatever this is, probably nothing at all, just a lump of cells on my shoulder. I'll finsih my schooling. I'll keep working, and looking for a new job. I will try to flirt as much as I always hae, if not just a little more.

Dealing with one condition since I was 10, well, I had it before that, I just didn't know *what* was wrong with me before that, I'm used to being in and out of medical facilities. But hell, as of late, things have been good, and I hadn't worried.

And now, the waiting.

And I'll deal with whatever is thrown at me.